Storage for the stories

No one's gonna read all this shit, but if you do, know this: I'm keeping this shit here to later look upon. I was dropping some knowledge today and in months or years, I'm goonna look back on this and see what parts of me I'm missing.


Having a self-defined good time by taking shit too seriously.


the worst part about everything now becoming meaningless is we're too lazy to redefine them.


Women who enjoy being dominated sexually must be the most uptight amd inhibited. the forcefulness during sex must cause, without disruption, the releases of their inhibitions. i say this as i psychoanalyze sylvia plath after reading that she enjoyed bring dominated sexually. pretty great for someone with as little sexual experience as me.

EVERYBODY'S TALKING BOUT THEIR SHORT LIST

If not lost, who has gound us....ever?

A Friend: Nick C- you hit the nail on the head so to speak.. women afraid to really be in tune with themselves sexually, either conciously or sub, relinquish control of their bodies over to their partner. I am not sure how gratifying that can be...just my thoughts..

Oh god, what a tragedy truly experiencing life intrinsically is. forgo the sanity and be unfettered as the wind or be tame and dissonant within yourself.

Christopher Anodyne Thanls for peering in on my status of consciousness, nick o. im glad a wise one of your glorious kind sees what i meant there. gonna pat myself on the back for getting Nick O's magnificent approval. pat pat

Lynne Hayes I have been on both ends of that spectrum.. neither was satisfying mentally, spiritually or physically.. The middle ground where one is intuned and confident within thier true selves, is where true satisfaction lay.

I agree entirely.

The goooood timesss are killiinngg mdee

Need more sleep than coke or methamphetamines

I would post a modest mouse song on your page Nick O, but im in bed on my phone.

I had a thought walking up my stairs as my ankled writhed below the rest of my weary body: this must be what aging feels like. like this is a moment when the body becomes less of what it was and more of an agonizing vessel filled with wonde...rs and stupid jokes about getting old. the latter only being spoken in conversation with stupid little young idiots who dont even know how good they have shiy. goddamn the brightest of eyes, the shininiest of polished hair, the smoothe baby bottoms acting as faces, the undeniably cute. gah, goddamn the whole lot of them.

A Friend: Oh that's ok.. hit me up tomorrow..K? Rest.. think.. and rest some more..

Sounds like a plan to me. i will most certainly do just that.
Son. of. a. bitch.

A Friend: Nick.. one day lets do a private chat here about these things.. you have an exceptional eye into the world.. ok?

A friend: No, it's sums of bitches..

Lol we'll certainly have to. maybe it should be preceded by us taking prozac to prepare our minds for the blow the talk would take.

A friend: lol.. prozac and a fifth of something over 80 proof.. but hey, if it worked for Buk..

You know ive been thinking about all the beatings he took , the incessant drinking, and the smoking. and i just think that man was as close to jesus as we'll ever get, in terms of invulnerability and immunity to illness. like, if jesus didnt get kidnapped or whatever, he would have STILL been outlived by bukowski.

One day im gonna wake up next to someone i really care about and i'm just gonna be like '' lets be matried. not get married, just marry ourselves and say we're married.''

If not love, then what have i had? oh thats right, ive had these lame ass bed sheets.

The irony of frustration, dissatisfaction, and stress is that all the while you continue living and holding on, one may still find themselves saying it is too much or it is too difficult. i feel the greatest hope lies somewhere in that fact.



Youtube wouldn't publish my latest xtranormal cartoon video, so I sent it these kind words in response to its automated question, "How can we help make this better?" that was meant to console me after having denied the shit out of my video. "By publishing the fucking video. How else? What are you going to do, send me some money to pay my rent? Publish the video and keep youtube from becoming t...he banal load of retarded self-fulfilling entertainment it is."

in a society without sexism, the only thing a man does or should do that a woman doesn't is insert his own penis into his lady's vagina. and only a fool would want to do that all the time.

Another friend: don't kick me when I'm down.
Me: you're kicking yourself on the ground. you look like ian curtis trying to breakdance.


Getting rid of my TV because - I’m tired of being turned on against my will.



fucking hate this generation. let decadence swallow our values whole and turn us into isolated freak...s bewildered by our own reflection and the presence of others.